January 21st, 2011
|09:03 pm - Blah blah blah|
So I'm getting my hair done bright and early tomorrow. I really hate waking up early these days! Another perm touch up. Last time didn't go so well because I had washed my hair too recently, so he had to take the perm out early. I hope this time is more successful, but I'm worried. My hair itches a lot right now! I washed it like two days ago I think. I hope my scalp is ready for a perm this time. I'll be really mad if it doesn't work out this time either
If it does I'm finally going to dye my hair a chocolate brown. I know I probably shouldn't because It'll be REALLY bad for it, but I don't care. hehe! I'll also probably get in trouble at my next hair appointment... But whatever! If it ends up looking good I'll maybe post a pic in my next update!
So today was really shitty. I had to take my first Xanax in like two weeks! I won't go into details, but it suffices to say both my mom and sister are insane. I think its genetic...
Both my parents are on probation at work right now and that scares the shit out of me! Life will be so bad for everyone in the family if they lose their jobs! I'm trying to get a job at the new Target in Emeryville. I've never really worked before and I'm a recluse with anxiety problems so I'm really scared about it. But hopefully it works out. I get the feeling I'm going to be needing a lot more Xanax to pull this off. But to get more I apparently need to start seeing a therapist again and blah blah blah... Why must life be so stressful?
I've been using my Pupe Girl account regularly again. If I can't afford to buy things in real life at least I can buy clothes for it. That way I can still have some sort of shopping Therapy. Hehe!
I really need to remember to call my grandmother. She lives right up the street but I haven't seen her in months. WTF? I'm seriously reclusive!
Also I've once again become semi addicted to watching HCBailly's video game walkthroughs. For games I'm not even playing! He's just so funny! I think I might love him...
Okay that's all.
Current Mood: tired
Good luck with getting the target job! That would be awesome. I've been applying to retail jobs like mad to save up for Japan. So hard in this market! blah. I did get a volunteer position in special education but that doesn't give me monies...just looks good on my resume.
You don't have to get into therapy to get more xanax...you just have to see a psychiatrist to perscribe it...do use it only when you have to, though.
Lets go to the public market soon and get num nums!!
PS. Can't wait to see your hurr!